quite pissed n hurt. i really dunno wut to do or wut to say to make this better. i`m also not sure what is wrong with her or what happened. i realised i don`t know much on wut is happening. just to state wut happened. we were waiting outside e1. dunno for what oso. den like quite boring la. was trying to make conversation n be enthu. haha. den suddenly dunno where she go. we tot she lost or wut. den go find her. actually she`s at e stairs. stupid. den we went there n accompany her to sit there la. after awhile den i sat with her. den dunno whether she uncomfortable or wut. den she got up n left. after waiting for some time. den we decided to go down la. when we went to e canteen den realised tt she n qianqi already there. so i just left them la. n went to find siewhwee. cuz maybe she feel weird with me. after that she come find me. den like ok like that leh. dunno la. when lining up at e hall. den she nvr really talk to me already. den we were v excited. wanna book place in e bus. den dunno where e hell she go again. second time. haha. den actually we go up wrong bus. so we went down to go to our actual bus la. den she was already there. den dominic went n sat w her. i went to talk w siewhwee n eliza. she was like totally ignoring us lo. at first i tot maybe its cuz of siewhwee n eliza cause she nt very close to them. den when reached there. didn`t feel like talking to them. so i just left la. when went into e lab to do e test. den we oso nvr talk. she purposely sit far far away from us. after tt i even asked her whether wanna go toilet alot. she say no. den suddenly she ok with us. den we even play 'catching' in there. after tt when can leave e lab. den i asked her to go w us la. den she like ignore me. den saw dominic siewhwee they all la. den i went there. i think she saw us budden just walk away again. den dominic wanted to go find her. den couldn`t find her lo. dunno where she go. finally saw her at some ulu corner of e building. den when like we go there. den she like keep walking away. was quite pissed lo. so i stand there n dun wanna move. after that den cannot tahan already. den i just told dominic to go with her. i go find other people la. like wut the fuck lo. wuts her problem man. dunno wut i did to her oso. she like got split personality leh. one min gd to u. one min like ignore u. after tt when gathering. den dominic came to sit w us. den she just walk right to e back. den of course he go la. dunno la. she like quite scary leh. den i tot it`s cuz of siewhwee n eliza that`s y she ignore us. budden she keep walking away from me. den should be cause of me la. haiya. anything la.
e most den dun talk lo. wut can i say mans. i`m not impeccable. i can`t everyone like me. i dunno what`s wrong with her. n i bloody wanna know WHY she`s acting so strange. aiya. even she dislike mf she oso nvr show until liddat lo. please. quite hurt. n upset. den when we talk to dominic den she nvr talk to him. wut e hell man. ok la. FINE. nxt time. we dun talk to him lo. den she can talk to him all she wants. n dun even need to walk away already. even better. i told christine abt this. siewhwee n eliza oso know. n can sense. haiyo. troubled. ok la. u might think i`m dumb. worrying ovr this kindof small lil thing. whatever la. i`m tired. of everything. i`ve been trying real hard to be nice. seriously TRYING. i dun wanna lose a fren. or two. lucky i met w siewhwee n eliza this yr. or i will be friendless. cuz last yr i was quite close to germaine n dominic ma. quite sad la. but if she doesn`t want it. den so be it. i`ve got nothing to say lo.
anywae if it comes down to choosing who to side with. i bet dominic will side her. n that really sucks. heck la. sometimes dunno what to say oso. den i just walk off. or i try to act more distant. so i dun lose it. or be polite la.
screw it. i hate feeling like this. i hate her attitude. i hate people to be nonchalant. i hate to keep everything bottled up inside. trying to act like e world is so damn beautiful. n that i`m damn happy. even when i`m not. i wanna scream it all out. fuck e world!
please just cut me loose. dun leave me hanging. screw it.
